Almost two months that I didn't write a journal eventhough I have millions and millions things to say. Pleasant and less pleasant things...
First, I'm so happy that I got my second DD!!
Everyday, I used to come online on deviantArt thinking of one serious thing "did I get a DD today?"
But the day I got it, I could not believe it and it took me ages to realize I HAVE FINALLY A DD
This was one of my dreams and thank you to `lonelyarethebrave
who made it come true!
It was this photo :
My first DD was this:
And I had two other DD on my stock account:
Previous saturday, a young man (15 year old) disappeard in my city.
The kind of thing you think that comes only somewhere else. I took the photos of his girlfriend and many people I know knew him. This whole story was very scary but the worse part was when they found his dead body Wednesday. They couldn't even recognize him because of the wounds on his face and his neck was cut, also, his hands was tied. I feel deeply schoked by what happend and to imagine that how near I live, I'm sure I could have hear him scream and maybe even met his killer(s) in the street one day or another. Sunday, the day after he disappeard, I went on a photoshoot in the snow with two adorable twins, and his body was discovered just next to. I'm sure we could have seen it if we would have walk around a little more... it's the place where most of my photoshoots happen, but I now feel schoked and disgusted forever. I have millions of questions in my head and can't stop to feel hurt. I just hope they will feel his killer(s) very fast and that they will die of pain in jail.
I now live officially nowhere. Sheriff and myself left my mum's and mum's boyfriend's home in emergency and we now live nowhere. It's very exciting and how to don't feel nervous too! I'm actually spending the night with him at the twin's place, where they live with their dad and awesomely cute kitten. We ate crêpes and we are going to sleep in a warm bed, but what tomorrow will be made of? We have no plan about where to sleep in a few days. I feel very excited to be able to meet all those people and I know this situation will bring me so much and inspire me as ever.
I do feel strange and kind of gloomy, and I know this can clearly be seen in my photography. In many ways, it pleases me to realize that my photos are really me. Few days before I was still crying about all my new works and hated it like crazy, but I managed to connect with that loneliness that used to inspire me and that I didn't feel for ages and to let my mind travel.
In a few days only, my first exhibition, in my little city: Belfort. The governement paid me all my prints and after, they even bhought them from me! Because, of it, I will be in around 10 magazines before the end of the month, I feel excited but I still don't manage to remove this deep "boredness" out of my heart. This exhibition called "Je veux croire" ("I want to believe", in English), will be in Paris by the start of 2011.
Here is all I wanted to say to anyone will have 5 minutes to spend
I read all your comments and see all your favourites,
and I promise I do my best to answer everything as fast as possible!
Thank you so much for all your support,
I know that without deviantArt, nothing of this would never have happend, not even the fact that
Sheriff my fiancé who is waiting for me in bed right now, since I met him on deviantArt.
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